I know this has nothing to do with baking, but I just have to let it out: Starbucks has become my crack rock. Okay, maybe it’s not as bad as a crack addiction (I’m not losing weight — quite the opposite — or stealing), but it still has all the markings of a classic addiction. Let’s look at some of the signs of a drug addiction:
• Feeling that you have to use the drug regularly — I crave a mocha everyday after work. I have been able to taper from daily to 2-4 times/week, but I have yet to go a whole week without one.
• Failing in your attempts to quit — Every week I say to myself “next week I’ll go cold turkey,” but then I come up with a rationalization to get one more.
• Spending money on the drug even though you can’t afford it — I guess I can afford it because I haven’t bounced checks or anything, but we could surely reduce our takeout budget if I would just quit the Starbucks smack.
• Doing things you wouldn’t normally do to obtain the drug — I’m not stealing to get coffee, but I will drive out of my way sometimes to find a Starbucks drive-thru, even if I don’t really have time for it.
• Feeling that you need the drug to deal with your problems — I seem to need something to transition from the intensity of my line cook job to the less intense pace of my afterschool mom duties. Transitioning after work isn’t really a problem to per se, but it’s something.
• Driving or doing other risky activities when under the influence of the drug — I drive while drinking mochas all the time.
• Focusing more time and energy on getting or using the drug — I don’t know if this one really applies; but I do seem to often be on the lookout for a Starbucks if I’m in new territory.
What’s really ironic about this is that I’m addicted to DECAF mochas; and, it’s the need for a decaffeinated drink that landed me at Starbucks in the first place. I’ve always had a hunch that there is some kind of addictive substance, more than just caffeine, in Starbucks coffee. The fact that I find myself in the throws of a decaf no whip mocha addiction proves my theory.
I gave up caffeine over a year ago; I used to drink a Diet Coke after work. But when caffeine was no longer on the menu, Starbucks was one of the only places that offered a good-tasting, caffeine-free substitute. At first it worked; it helped me get through the need for a Coke. Then I was able to limit Starbucks to just occasional visits. That was last school year. Something has happened this year, and as soon as I started back at work, I started going to Starbucks almost every day. This time, I don’t seem to be able to stop. Able is the wrong word; I think I mean to say willing. I know good and well what I need to do to kick the habit — go cold turkey, push through the cravings, drink herbal tea — I’ve done it before, so I am able. I just don’t seem to have the will to do it this year. My waistline sure needs me to; those mochas aren’t slimming! I think I smell a New Year’s Resolution coming on.
How about you? Anyone else out there grappling with a Starbucks habit?